Friday, February 27, 2015

2/27/15 - The Big Ultrasound

About 8 years ago today, I drove across country and moved my entire life to Los Angeles. It's so incredible to think that 8 years later, I'm married to the love of my life and we just had our 20 week ultrasound for our baby boy. Life is crazy beautiful sometimes.

When I come for these ultrasound appointments, they should know by now to have some tissues on hand. When our little boy comes up on the screen and I see that tiny heart beating, I can't help but start crying. Today, the doctor measured different parts of his body and she walked us through everything she was looking at.

I love this little boy so much. It's still a little hard to believe he's in there and we are having a baby. It's been so long in the making and we are finally here, halfway through no less!

Everything that the doctor looked at was perfect and right on track. We were told that some minor things could come up in this ultrasound but not to be concerned.

But nothing came up. He's growing right on track and all of his organs look perfect. We saw individual sections of his brain, his face and mouth (where they look for a cleft palate), the four chambers of his heart and the blood flow, his arms and fingers, his stomach, kidneys, bladder, legs and toes and of course his little boy parts! Which might not be so little by the doctor's reaction! She kept saying things like, "Wow there it is again!"

He was a little shy today and didn't want his picture taken too much. But he was not shy about showing us that he's a boy!  And he kept stretching and moving all around - he's going to be an active little guy!

I kept waiting for this ultrasound, knowing it was a big milestone because they check his entire anatomy. I think part of me was holding back my feelings, scared they might find something wrong or have cause for concern. But he's perfect and he passed with flying colors. We are having a baby and he's healthy and everything is right on track. And now I feel like I can slowly let go and fall completely in love with this little boy.

Wednesday, February 25, 2015

2/25/15 - Week 20: Banana

Today the baby is the size of...

(I know this says mango but we did that last week and another site said he's as big as a banana!)

Somehow, today I am 20 weeks pregnant. That means I'm halfway through this marathon and in approximately 20 weeks from today, we will be holding our little boy.

This half of the pregnancy has flown by. Of course I had my fair share of issues from spotting to round ligament pain, but looking back I feel like it all happened in the blink of an eye. In the next 20 weeks, we have to work on our baby registry and his nursery!

I can't help but feel sad that I'm already halfway through my first pregnancy. This is something I've wanted my entire life and it's already halfway over. I remember reading other blogs while I had my severe round ligament pains where women talked about missing that in utero bond with their baby once they gave birth. I remember being in so much pain and wishing it was the end already so he could come out!

But now, I get it. I feel that sadness and know I will miss this incredible connection that I have with my son. We will never be as physically close as we are right now. I love waking up and looking at my growing belly and talking to him. And I've been able to start feeling those little pokes as he let's me know he is still in there and to stop asking if he's ok!

I love this little boy. We've been through a lot in 20 weeks and I know our bond will only get stronger in the next 20 weeks, not to mention the many years ahead.

I'm going to try and enjoy every day as much as I can and hope the second half doesn't fly by too fast!

Monday, February 23, 2015

2/23/15 - Lunchtime Blues

For everyone who knows me, I'm a creature of habit. 
Change is great...if it's happening to someone else!

So when I got pregnant, I suddenly couldn't eat certain foods.
Coffee, alcohol, sushi, alcohol, unpasteurized cheeses, alcohol... You see where I'm going with this.

But somehow one of the hardest things to give up was LUNCHMEAT!

I used to eat a turkey sandwich for lunch every day. 
Every. Single. Day. 
Suddenly, my lunchtime routine was extremely interrupted and I had to try to get creative. 
Let's just say this little boy has seen his fair share of egg salad sandwiches!

I try to make egg salad the night before or have leftovers from dinner that I can reheat the next day. But then there are days like today, when I am running out the door and have no time to make lunch, so I end up with my backup plan: a peanut butter sandwich.

I can't tell you how freaking sick I am of peanut butter. I think after I have this baby I might never eat it again!

I try to be creative with bananas, but it doesn't quite cut it.

Boring with a capital B.
At least avocados make everything better!

And speaking of better, here's baby boy at week 19!

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

2/18/15 - Week 19: Mango

Today the baby is the size of...

(We couldn't find a 6 inch wide tomato, so another website said he's also the size of a mango!)

Look who's practically as big as the softball and already weighs half a pound! That's pretty crazy because I'm almost halfway through this pregnancy marathon and that means in the second half he will gain a ton of weight! (Hopefully not too much...go easy on Mommy, little guy!)

So this week, he's covered in a greasy white substance, vernix caseosa, which shields him from the amniotic fluid. Otherwise he would come out of this nine month bath looking all wrinkled!

Also this week, he is going through a growth spurt and his legs are now proportionate to his arms. Which might explain a few TINY MOVEMENTS I've been feeling!  Every now and then, there is a tiny little poke or ripple and I think that's him saying hi!

Of course it happens more often after I eat something sweet... So he obviously has a sweet tooth like his Mommy!

Monday, February 16, 2015

2/16/15 - Pasteur-What?

Today we had to say goodbye to our little suite at the Hotel Drisco.

We walked around our Pacific Heights neighborhood for a little bit and the views were amazing.

We ended up in North Beach for lunch and had a killer meatball sandwich with a salad.  
Then it was time to head to the airport.  

Now we know airports aren't known for their food.  We thought we selected the lesser of two evils when we sat at a Mexican restaurant.  Julia ordered me a chicken quesadilla and this conversation ensued:

Julia: I wanted to make sure the cheese is pasteurized on the quesadilla.
Cashier: Yes, it has cheese on it.
Julia: Right, I wanted to know if it's pasteurized.
Cashier: The cheese is melted on top.
Julia: But is it pasteurized?
Cashier (to another waitress): Can you see what she means? I don't know what she's asking.
Julia (to the new waitress): Is the cheese in the quesadilla pasteurized?
New Waitress: Um, I don't know.  Let me ask the cook. (To the cook) Is the cheese pasteurized?
Cook: I don't know, I just cook it.
New Waitress: Sorry, we just don't have that information.
Kayt: Babe, I'm sure it's fine, JUST GET IT!

We like to make sure all cheese I eat is pasteurized to protect baby Blackbird and I'm sure all cheese in the airport is pasteurized and probably has a shelf life of 50 years, but we like to be extra sure!

Let's just say that when the quesadilla arrived, the cheese was the least of our problems.  Some of the chicken looked pink and some looked brown.  We abandoned ship and opted for a veggie pizza across the aisle.

Airport food aside, we had an amazing mini-babymoon in San Francisco.  That city is so special to us and it's still hard to believe we were there while I'm pregnant with our son.

Speaking of baby boy, here's week 18!
And after eating all of this amazing food this weekend, my belly button is almost ready to pop out!
It's crazy!!!

Sunday, February 15, 2015

2/15/15 - Please Sir, May I Have Some More

We have slowly been eating our way around the incredible city of San Francisco.
The weather has been amazingly warm, in the low 70s. Even the cherry blossoms are in bloom.

Yesterday we had delicious pizza for lunch at Pizzeria Delfina.

Sadly, I couldn't enjoy the burrata pie that my wife did, but my margherita pizza was pretty great.

We walked around afterwards looking at little shops and then took a nap back at our hotel. Afternoon naps are the best thing ever.

Dinner consisted of room service and watching the movie, The Grand Budapest Hotel. It was a pretty great night staying in.

Today we ventured out for the famous Bi-Rite creamery after breakfast. Who doesn't want ice cream before lunch?!

On the way there, we passed the Painted Ladies from Full House!

The ice cream was so delicious I forgot to take a photo of it...but I do have this to share with the guy who took one look at my belly and said, "Congratulations!"

(Photo courtesy of Tommy)

Then after a little more walking, we ended up at Chrissy Field, the beach near the Golden Gate Bridge. It was so warm that everyone was out enjoying the day.

After a brief walk through the Palace of the Fine Arts (where my wife adorably quoted the scene from one of my favorite movies, The Rock), we ended up at a Peruvian restaurant for lunch. Now I can proudly order a sandwich with a side of mixed greens AND French fries. Why choose between a salad and fries?! Go for the gold baby!

With very full bellies, we came back to the hotel for an afternoon nap. (Well, that was after we stopped for a little frozen yogurt. I just needed a sweet taste after lunch, what can I say?)

Then it was time for dinner and we had reservations at this adorable place called Marlowe.

I've become a connoisseur of sparkling water over these five months, and Badoit is definitely my favorite!

Dinner was fine (Julia's chicken was way better than my pork chop entree, but at least she shared!). Let's just skip to the dessert.

Chocolate covered.
Peanut butter filled.
Pretzel bites.

Ohmygod they were so good. And we got two glasses of milk to go with them. It was such a cute restaurant and that dessert was ridiculous.

Thanks to the Motrin and many Uber rides, I'm feeling so much better and haven't had to walk too much.

Tomorrow we head back to LA, but not before a few more fabulous meals!

Saturday, February 14, 2015

2/14/15 - Dear Blackbird, Part 2

Welcome to San Francisco!

This is the city where your moms got engaged. We feel so lucky to be able to bring you here for the weekend. There are so many things we can't wait to show you.

I've wanted to visit this city again for a long time and it means so much to have you here with us.

We love you, baby Blackbird, and we hope you're enjoying the weekend.

Happy Valentine's Day to our little boy!

Thursday, February 12, 2015

2/12/15 - RLP Can R.I.P.

I have been feeling a little better but am nowhere near 100%. The abdominal pain occurs throughout the day and hurts when I walk or even drive over bumps in the road.

I let my doctor know I was still uncomfortable and he suggested I come into the office. So today I had a lovely ultrasound and got to see baby boy hanging out and his heart beating strong. So he's perfectly fine!!! Big sigh of relief!

The placenta is still low and I have 2 fibroids (which I knew about from an earlier ultrasound) and the doctor said they might be causing the pressure. They won't affect the baby but could cause discomfort for me since they grow throughout the pregnancy. So I'm feeding three things inside of me!!! Once I have the baby they will shrink again. A lot of women have fibroids and don't even know about them!

The pain could also be the round ligament pain or a combination of that and the fibroids. He suggested I take Motrin for 3 days and see if there is an improvement. He said if it's the fibroids, the Motrin should really help and it's safe to take at this stage of pregnancy. As much as I didn't want to take more drugs, I'm in pain and the doctor said to take it, so that's all I need! If I don't trust in my doctor at this point then forget it!

I'm looking forward to taking some Motrin and hopefully feeling better real soon.

In the meantime, look at this cutie!

Wednesday, February 11, 2015

2/11/15 - Week 18: Sweet Potato

Today the baby is the size of...

(And on another website, it said he is also the size of a soda can!)


Our sweet baby boy is a sweet potato and the best news yet: HE CAN HEAR US! My soon to be biggest fan gets to hear my lovely speaking (and singing!) voice all day long!

We are going to start switching from Rage Against The Machine to Mozart on my iPod ;)

Also, I feel like I might have felt some movement flutters but I will keep you posted on when I feel it for sure...

My round ligament pain is definitely still there but this is the first morning that I feel a bit of an improvement. Hoping I'm getting over the hump with this and will soon feel (semi) normal again.

So this week Blackbird's nervous system is kicking into high gear and my uterus is now the size of a CANTALOUPE. No wonder I've been feeling the RLP!

Sunday, February 8, 2015

2/8/15 - Decaf!

I'm feeling a little better this morning even after the tylenol has worn off. I got up at least five times in the middle of the night trying to get comfortable.

Even more strange is when I lay on my back, there is a lump protruding on the right side of my lower abdomen. We had asked about this while we were getting our ultrasound in the ER a few weeks ago. 

They said IT'S THE BABY'S HEAD! 
Oh dear god. 
It is so weird and uncomfortable to lay down and see this lump and feel it sticking out and know that it's your son's head!

I needed to get out of the house, so we took a quick drive to a fabulous coffee shop and I had my first cup of coffee since OCTOBER!!!

I wanted to wait and have a cup of decaf coffee that was decaffeinated via a process that didn't involve chemicals. It's surprisingly hard to find somewhere that does it like that but today was the day!


Decaf now with cream:

It was delicious, but I surprisingly didn't miss the taste. I was happy to have it but think I can continue without it for a while longer.  Next I want to try a decaf latte!

And here is the bump this week!

Saturday, February 7, 2015

2/7/15 - RLP

Today I experienced the joys of round ligament pain or RLP or as I call it DEATH.

Ever since Thursday night, I've been feeling abdominal pressure. Well today it went to a whole new level. Julia and I tried to run some errands around lunch time and I could barely walk.

It felt like the worst cramps ever. And it also felt like the worst gas ever. And even worse, it felt like someone had shoved a bowling ball inside of me and my muscles are just now having to deal with it.

I spent the rest of the afternoon and evening laying down in tears. The pain was unbearable. 
RLP is a common pain that occurs in the second trimester. It's essentially the stretching and thinning of your ligaments to make room for the baby. For some women it comes and goes and only lasts a few minutes. For others (especially those with smaller frames) it can last for days. We came across blogs where women said they had this for up to 5 days and were in so much pain.

I tried doing some stretches and changing positions but I couldn't get comfortable.

So go ahead and reach for the vicodin.
Nope put it down.
Reach for the codeine.
Nope put it down.
Reach for the Xanax?
Nope put it down.

You're left with tylenol. I finally took some and that helped take the edge off. I had to take another one before bed because the intense pain came right back.

Even though tylenol is completely safe during pregnancy, I was trying to stay "drug free". But after writhing in pain with tears streaming down my face, I knew I wasn't helping Blackbird or myself by being stubborn.

RLP only affects the mother and doesn't impact the baby. So poor little guy was probably hanging out in there wondering what all the drama was about. We had emailed my doctor and because I wasn't bleeding, he thought these were likely growing pains.

Hopefully tomorrow will be better because I can't take much more of this!

Friday, February 6, 2015

2/6/15 - Growing Pains

Ever since last night I've been feeling really full in my abdomen area. I came home from work yesterday and had to lay down. My lovely wife cooked me dinner and shortly after that I went to bed.

This morning I still feel pressure and am walking around slowly. I know the last time I felt pressure I also had spotting, so I'm hoping that doesn't happen this time. So far so good!

I think this little boy is having a growth spurt and he's making this an uncomfortable day!  But as long as he's fine in there and I'm not bleeding, I can suffer through this!

Hopefully he's growing more and is kicking that placenta up towards the top of my uterus! Keep up the good work little guy!

Thursday, February 5, 2015

2/5/15 - The Facebook Reveal

We finally felt like we were far along enough to announce our baby boy on Facebook! 

It's so crazy that now-a-days (I feel so old just typing that word) this is something you have to think about. 

Should we put it on FB? 
How do we announce it?

Well, I think we did a pretty awesome job:

#TBT to when I WASN'T pregnant.  
That's right... Julia and I are expecting a baby BOY in July!  
Can't wait to meet the only man who's ever stolen my heart <3

Wednesday, February 4, 2015

2/4/15 - Week 17: Onion

Happy week 17!
Today the baby is the size of...

 (Yes, I know this says turnip but I have another site that says onion and that looks better next to the softball!)

He is as big as my open palm and almost as big as the softball!
This week he starts gaining some fat and is getting bigger and stronger (trust me, I can feel my body stretching!). And he has one of a kind fingerprints this week!

I also might be able to start feeling some movement flutters soon.  I'll definitely keep you posted on when I can feel this little rockstar moving around!

And maybe it will happen after I eat one of these:

Girl Scout cookie time is the best time of the year to be pregnant!

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

2/3/15 - Oh No She Didn't

Tonight my wife came home and had a large bag in her hand.
From the Gap.
From the BABY Gap.

I started saying things like, "I can't believe you bought baby clothes! We were going to wait! We need a stroller and a car seat, not clothes!"

And then she showed me another bag containing this:

And all was forgiven.
Which was exactly her plan, but still. At least she knows me!

But seriously I can't blame her.
How can you resist this?  Look at those tiny feet!

Or this?  Dinosaurs, my favorite thing!

Or this with bear ears on the hood for crying out loud.

We can't wait to have our baby boy dressed up in all of these adorable outfits.
But for now..... let me just devour this box of cupcakes.

Monday, February 2, 2015

2/2/15 - Baby Boy

We had our 16 week doctor's appointment today and everything looks great! Once I see that little heart beating, I always breathe a sigh of relief. Blackbird is just fine hanging out in there!
And the doctor showed us again that it is a BOY!

We go back again in four weeks for a big ultrasound appointment. They will check the whole anatomy of the baby and look at all of his organs. I'm so excited for this one to be able to see everything!

So in the next four weeks the placenta will hopefully move up (and the spotting has stopped and the doctor isn't worried about it). 

Also in the next four weeks, I will probably start to feel him move! I'm really looking forward to that!  And after seeing him on the ultrasounds, I have a feeling I'll be in the middle of a boxing match!